It’s been a while since I posted. I guess I was really enjoying my vacation before I start work this summer!
A while ago, Captain had me write down specific fantasies I wanted to have come true. Although none of them were over the top, it’s still a little nerve wracking telling someone else what you daydream about. On top of that, He had me write down what I would do in return if my fantasy came true. I hated doing that. I was paranoid I wouldn’t make a fair enough offer or He wouldn’t like the offers or would just think them silly. In the end, I don’t think He was happy with them because I didn’t get to orgasm that night. I can’t help but feel a little upset. Both at Him and myself, even though I know I tried. It was a shot in the dark concerning what He would like as a trade off. He knew this and so later on He said I could cum if I wanted since I’m still learning, but by then I felt guilty for not doing better and just couldn’t. Despite how frustrated I am (both physically and emotionally), I’m looking forward to seeing Him this weekend. Even if I don’t earn an orgasm again…